i wonder

why do i still think of that particular person
when she actually left without leaving any
advanced clues for me to get a grip of myself?

and why am i not over of the very same situation
that keeps on coming into my life though i know that it
will happen to another person?

why do i even bother posting this piece of crap while
i can start writing a good essay for my assignments or whatsoever
at this very moment?

momentarily i stood over my thoughts.
they were not made out of shattered hopes.
my heart was raped.
for some reasons i can't definitely explain,
i found it in another ocean of confusion.

way out of my level of thinking, maybe?
or maybe i just can't justify things that are related
to this subject anymore.

at the very end of the day,
i'd prefer myself to do the soliloquy;
"no,i won't let you go wry."

and right at the finishing line,
i'd love to hear that this line is never true;
"love never last".

yes, face it.
kneel over your new king of the new kingdom.
for that will the king spares you your life.

forever.
still.
no answer at all.