she was hypnotizing the future yet amazed by miracle.

every single second.
every single minute.
every single hour.
every single day
every single week.
every single month.

Now every time that I look at myself
"I thought I told you
this world is not for you" 

listening to The Strokes - Reptilia.

currently looking at myself,

making a glance at the thought of the meaning of its lyric.

indeed,very deep. 

how many times do i have to fail?

how many times would i get bored?

how many times should i find love?

how many times must i be someone else?

how many times should i brag about myself?

frank speaking,

i can't figure how am i living in this world.

i didn't know what life is.

i didn't even notice that i am certainly not me once upon a time.

for now,

i am living in a world of my own.

at least that was what Mdm. Adlina said before.

every little choice that i made affect my life,

that's right.

the question is,

have i made the right decision yet?

i don't know.

maybe i don't care.

when i look around me,

i see people.

people with minds and souls.

they may had lived the hard way before this.

to have their days with fights and wars.

to sell their properties for studies and living.

to find their true self as they get older.

to not work and keeping the stomach filled.

but,

some of them still know nothing 'bout hardship in life.

like me.

at least i learned something from my dad.

people have thoughts of their own about life.

sharing and telling.

teaching while advising.

there's nothing wrong with that.

as for me,

i am still learning.

earning good advices is not something that people like me always have.

people,

i have one thing to tell ;

learn on appreciating things that you have.

you'll never know when you're going to lose it.

till the next post,sweetheart.

thanks for reading. ;)